Hey there,
So, I had the fill on Friday- .6, and boy am I tight!!! Too tight, maybe! I am still on liquids- aargh!
I am calling the MD office this afternoon.
More to come!
A
Monday, May 13, 2013
Friday, May 10, 2013
So Happy to Have Had a Fill
Hello Bandsters!
Just wanted to check in and give you guys an update on what's been happening with me since my last post back in August! I would say that I can't believe it's been that long, but if I really think about it, it does feel like a long time since my head has been on straight.
So, yeah, blogging helps keep my head on straight. Blogging keeps my head on straight. Repeat ten times daily.
I have had a stressful year. Well, stressful few years, but I had taken my focus off of myself about a year into the band, and bad things happened. When I don't treat myself kindly, when I avoid things that I don't want to deal with stress builds. With stress building, my band was not happy. I have had many times where I can't get through a meal without a problem, and I thought my band was too tight. The reality is that my band was not too tight. I was just making poor food choices based on emotional needs, and actually, my band wasn't tight enough. Not being able to eat a chicken gyro is okay. I should expect that bread is really hard to eat. I had developed strategies to eat around my band, that I wasn't necessarily consciously aware of, but the reality is that drinking a hot cup of tea while eating something crunchy makes the food go down easier. I was not following the rules, and I gained weight. It sucks, but I own it, and now I am actually excited to start again.
More news! I went to the MD today for my annual esophogram and check up. I always dread and avoid as part of some of the negative ways I deal with stress, so I was really happy that I followed through on the appointment. Yes, I have gained, I knew this, but happily, my band looks perfect and I had a fill of .6 so now I am at 6.0 in my band. I am on liquids for two days and mushies for two days, and now I am back on the monthly check in schedule. It feels good that I can get back on the wagon and not feel shame and hopelessness. The truth is that I have my band, it's my tool. It is in great condition, and it will work for me it I let it. I need to start over mentally. Get psyched about having a band that will be my internal coach.
So, here I am starting over, not back to the beginning, but excited to get this back on track. Thanks to you all for reading this, and for your continued support!
xoxoxox
Annie
Just wanted to check in and give you guys an update on what's been happening with me since my last post back in August! I would say that I can't believe it's been that long, but if I really think about it, it does feel like a long time since my head has been on straight.
So, yeah, blogging helps keep my head on straight. Blogging keeps my head on straight. Repeat ten times daily.
I have had a stressful year. Well, stressful few years, but I had taken my focus off of myself about a year into the band, and bad things happened. When I don't treat myself kindly, when I avoid things that I don't want to deal with stress builds. With stress building, my band was not happy. I have had many times where I can't get through a meal without a problem, and I thought my band was too tight. The reality is that my band was not too tight. I was just making poor food choices based on emotional needs, and actually, my band wasn't tight enough. Not being able to eat a chicken gyro is okay. I should expect that bread is really hard to eat. I had developed strategies to eat around my band, that I wasn't necessarily consciously aware of, but the reality is that drinking a hot cup of tea while eating something crunchy makes the food go down easier. I was not following the rules, and I gained weight. It sucks, but I own it, and now I am actually excited to start again.
More news! I went to the MD today for my annual esophogram and check up. I always dread and avoid as part of some of the negative ways I deal with stress, so I was really happy that I followed through on the appointment. Yes, I have gained, I knew this, but happily, my band looks perfect and I had a fill of .6 so now I am at 6.0 in my band. I am on liquids for two days and mushies for two days, and now I am back on the monthly check in schedule. It feels good that I can get back on the wagon and not feel shame and hopelessness. The truth is that I have my band, it's my tool. It is in great condition, and it will work for me it I let it. I need to start over mentally. Get psyched about having a band that will be my internal coach.
So, here I am starting over, not back to the beginning, but excited to get this back on track. Thanks to you all for reading this, and for your continued support!
xoxoxox
Annie
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Off My Game
So, what started out with a bang, is ending up with a bit of a sputter. I did not eat well today!
No details- it's too depressing.
Work is stressful, but normally, I thrive on that. I just seem somewhat lacking in motivation in general lately- need to do so many things- work, home, family, money management, etc. Just like everyone else, I know, but sometimes I feel like my subconscious rebels and does the opposite of what I really need to do. Don't worry, though, I will be discussing this with my therapist on Saturday! She always has good insights, and her advice, which is often the advice I would give someone in my situation, is dead on, and somehow feels more do-able when coming from her, rather than from me.
No pity party here though- tomorrow is another day to succeed- Fall down seven times, get up eight!
So, that's what I will be doing tomorrow. For tonight, I am just going to chill and try to get to bed at a reasonable time.
Good night friends, and stay strong!
xoxo
Annie
No details- it's too depressing.
Work is stressful, but normally, I thrive on that. I just seem somewhat lacking in motivation in general lately- need to do so many things- work, home, family, money management, etc. Just like everyone else, I know, but sometimes I feel like my subconscious rebels and does the opposite of what I really need to do. Don't worry, though, I will be discussing this with my therapist on Saturday! She always has good insights, and her advice, which is often the advice I would give someone in my situation, is dead on, and somehow feels more do-able when coming from her, rather than from me.
No pity party here though- tomorrow is another day to succeed- Fall down seven times, get up eight!
So, that's what I will be doing tomorrow. For tonight, I am just going to chill and try to get to bed at a reasonable time.
Good night friends, and stay strong!
xoxo
Annie
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Day 2 of Blogging RE-Committment
Lovies!
Today has been a fairly good day, food wise, and an eye opening one at that.
First- what did I eat today? Hmm..
large iced coffee with splenda and fat free half and half
12 ounces of pineapple low fat cottage cheese
pita chips
tea with milk and splenda
water
Now, this could be better, I know, but let's focus on the positives, shall we? 1. I ate protein for lunch- in fact, I not only ate protein, but I actually ate something I brought from home for lunch! Yay me!! The pita chips I had in the fridge at work, so they went nicely with the cottage cheese- like a chips and dip thing.
I have gotten into a bad habit of ordering food for lunch. Very bad habit. Tuna melt on a roll- I only can eat about 1/4 of the roll, or I puke it up, but seriously? Tuna with mayo and cheese? Not necessary. My other lunch of choice has been 2 beef patties. Jamaican. I usually end up puking most of it, but there is something I love about them. I need to put these two habits on hold. Not good.
What will I bring tomorrow? Maybe I will make egg salad, or tuna? I don't mind the mayo bit, especially if I am in control of how much I add. I need something crunchy with this. Maybe some kind of vegetable? We will see. Small steps.
Speaking of steps, I saw one of my colleagues this morning, and she looks fabulous. We were discussing another fab looking colleague, who has lost like 90 or more lbs this year alone. She is doing it through eating very low carb, exercising like crazy, and having her thyroid condition diagnosed and finally treated. She looks a-mazing! The first colleage I spoke of, let's call her Monica, also looks great. Turns out she is biking to work- admirable! and is doing the "slow carb" diet. Protein, beans and veggies at every meal. No white carbs- the deadly dairy, sugar and flour combo. Now, this is intriguiging me for some reason.
My brother is on some bean kick as well, and is a runner to boot. He is one of those people who eats the same thing every day, runs every day at lunchtime- you know the type. He eats beans every meal- with kale, and some kind of protein. Turns out, that's kind of the thing that the slow carb diet advocates, PLUS, it calls for a cheat day, which in my past experience, makes a diet (I was doing a low carb plus working out diet) very do-able.
What's all this rambling about anyway? I don't know- I guess I am kind of excited to be back!!
Oh, and I wanted to tell you that I have a new therapist, Jill, who I love! She is kick ass!
smooches!!
A
Today has been a fairly good day, food wise, and an eye opening one at that.
First- what did I eat today? Hmm..
large iced coffee with splenda and fat free half and half
12 ounces of pineapple low fat cottage cheese
pita chips
tea with milk and splenda
water
Now, this could be better, I know, but let's focus on the positives, shall we? 1. I ate protein for lunch- in fact, I not only ate protein, but I actually ate something I brought from home for lunch! Yay me!! The pita chips I had in the fridge at work, so they went nicely with the cottage cheese- like a chips and dip thing.
I have gotten into a bad habit of ordering food for lunch. Very bad habit. Tuna melt on a roll- I only can eat about 1/4 of the roll, or I puke it up, but seriously? Tuna with mayo and cheese? Not necessary. My other lunch of choice has been 2 beef patties. Jamaican. I usually end up puking most of it, but there is something I love about them. I need to put these two habits on hold. Not good.
What will I bring tomorrow? Maybe I will make egg salad, or tuna? I don't mind the mayo bit, especially if I am in control of how much I add. I need something crunchy with this. Maybe some kind of vegetable? We will see. Small steps.
Speaking of steps, I saw one of my colleagues this morning, and she looks fabulous. We were discussing another fab looking colleague, who has lost like 90 or more lbs this year alone. She is doing it through eating very low carb, exercising like crazy, and having her thyroid condition diagnosed and finally treated. She looks a-mazing! The first colleage I spoke of, let's call her Monica, also looks great. Turns out she is biking to work- admirable! and is doing the "slow carb" diet. Protein, beans and veggies at every meal. No white carbs- the deadly dairy, sugar and flour combo. Now, this is intriguiging me for some reason.
My brother is on some bean kick as well, and is a runner to boot. He is one of those people who eats the same thing every day, runs every day at lunchtime- you know the type. He eats beans every meal- with kale, and some kind of protein. Turns out, that's kind of the thing that the slow carb diet advocates, PLUS, it calls for a cheat day, which in my past experience, makes a diet (I was doing a low carb plus working out diet) very do-able.
What's all this rambling about anyway? I don't know- I guess I am kind of excited to be back!!
Oh, and I wanted to tell you that I have a new therapist, Jill, who I love! She is kick ass!
smooches!!
A
Monday, August 6, 2012
I'm BAACK!!!
Hello People Fighting the Good Fight!
I am back!
I have taken a hiatus for eight months now- can't believe it has been that long!
Let's take some time to get re-acquainted...shall we? I still have my band, am still at the same job, married to the same guy, and have no new children here, or on the way. We haven't moved, nobody died, and nothing too terrible has happened outside of the ordinary terrible things that happen to regular people like me.
I guess I just gave up there for a bit.
The band is so finicky, and when it got hard, I bailed. I haven't been to the doctor since I last blogged either, oops! I am up 12 pounds from the time I last posted my weight on here, but about 19 from my ALL TIME LOW- which was a result of being too tight, unable to swallow my own spit, and landing in the ER for a complete unfill back in November.
I am neither tight nor loose. I still pb almost daily if I am not careful, and sometimes it feels like I don't eat anything. I guess that's not really true though, because the sliders still slide- ice cream, cookies, crunchy things, etc. I still need to be careful with meals, but otherwise, I have been eating everything bad, and not paying attention. I am coming clean here people!
Why today? Why right now to come clean? Well, I'm bored. Yes, I said it. I'm bored with being a size 18/20. Bored with the cheat foods that frankly, are not doing much for me anymore. My birthday is next month, and maybe that's another reason. Middle age is rapidly approaching, and I need to get this ass in gear! What else, oh, our annual employee health assessment is happening, and I don't want to be up from last year- when I weighed myself this morning, I was up four pounds from my weight last year, so that's a motivation. Also, I am joining our work walking challenge- 8,000 steps a day from September to November, and the winning teams get entered into a raffle to win a trip to ____. Very exciting, and motivating.
Also, I am just back from vacation, and it feels like the time is right to get back to business!
Hope you are all fabulous and doing well!
xoxo
Annie
I am back!
I have taken a hiatus for eight months now- can't believe it has been that long!
Let's take some time to get re-acquainted...shall we? I still have my band, am still at the same job, married to the same guy, and have no new children here, or on the way. We haven't moved, nobody died, and nothing too terrible has happened outside of the ordinary terrible things that happen to regular people like me.
I guess I just gave up there for a bit.
The band is so finicky, and when it got hard, I bailed. I haven't been to the doctor since I last blogged either, oops! I am up 12 pounds from the time I last posted my weight on here, but about 19 from my ALL TIME LOW- which was a result of being too tight, unable to swallow my own spit, and landing in the ER for a complete unfill back in November.
I am neither tight nor loose. I still pb almost daily if I am not careful, and sometimes it feels like I don't eat anything. I guess that's not really true though, because the sliders still slide- ice cream, cookies, crunchy things, etc. I still need to be careful with meals, but otherwise, I have been eating everything bad, and not paying attention. I am coming clean here people!
Why today? Why right now to come clean? Well, I'm bored. Yes, I said it. I'm bored with being a size 18/20. Bored with the cheat foods that frankly, are not doing much for me anymore. My birthday is next month, and maybe that's another reason. Middle age is rapidly approaching, and I need to get this ass in gear! What else, oh, our annual employee health assessment is happening, and I don't want to be up from last year- when I weighed myself this morning, I was up four pounds from my weight last year, so that's a motivation. Also, I am joining our work walking challenge- 8,000 steps a day from September to November, and the winning teams get entered into a raffle to win a trip to ____. Very exciting, and motivating.
Also, I am just back from vacation, and it feels like the time is right to get back to business!
Hope you are all fabulous and doing well!
xoxo
Annie
Thursday, December 15, 2011
My Fill is Inadequate, and I Actually Have to Try
Hey there,
So, I had my fill (5.0 cc's), and I feel... nothing. I am scheduled for another fill next week- the 21st. I am trying to be good until then, but I did have a piece of carrot cake today. Ugh.
I am up about 12 ish pounds from my low, and I want that number to come back. I notice it in my face, mostly, and around my middle. Flattering, right? Awesome.
In the midst of holiday fetes, drinking upsurges, and high stress, this is the LEAST wonderful time to lose weight, or maintain, for Pete's sake, but alas, my fill on the 21st, should help tremendously. I am sure they will be ultra conservative in what they give me- probably 1.0 or less, I am thinking, since with the holidays, I am sure the place will be a ghost town.
Until then, lights, wrapping, and CARDS! I haven't done my cards yet! EEK! Guess what I will be doing this weekend? Cookies and cards!
xoxoxoxo
A
So, I had my fill (5.0 cc's), and I feel... nothing. I am scheduled for another fill next week- the 21st. I am trying to be good until then, but I did have a piece of carrot cake today. Ugh.
I am up about 12 ish pounds from my low, and I want that number to come back. I notice it in my face, mostly, and around my middle. Flattering, right? Awesome.
In the midst of holiday fetes, drinking upsurges, and high stress, this is the LEAST wonderful time to lose weight, or maintain, for Pete's sake, but alas, my fill on the 21st, should help tremendously. I am sure they will be ultra conservative in what they give me- probably 1.0 or less, I am thinking, since with the holidays, I am sure the place will be a ghost town.
Until then, lights, wrapping, and CARDS! I haven't done my cards yet! EEK! Guess what I will be doing this weekend? Cookies and cards!
xoxoxoxo
A
Friday, December 2, 2011
The Day Before Tomorrow
Hello!
So, here I am again, being accountable to myself! Hello, Self!
Weight- down one lb since yesterday. So far this week down seven pounds.
Food:
Thursday PM
tea with milk and splenda for ride home
matzoh brei- one and half matzoh one egg, tsp butter, ketchup (estimated portion of family meal)
vodka and lemonade
three pieces of english toffee and two spoons of ice cream
Friday AM
coffee with half and half and splenda
3ish oz. pernil with 5 or so pieces of sweet plantains and 2 tbsp rice
tea with milk and splenda
I am not making the best choices, but I am eating protein up the ying yang. The pernil and plantains were a nice treat- not something I eat ever, but the mood struck. The portion was gigantic, so I spooned out some meat (served in separate container) and had a fewish pieces of plaintain. My friend ordered the rice- plain rice, so I had two plastic spoons of it which I mixed in with the cut up pork and plantains. Yum. Not stuffed, satisfied feeling, but seriously jonesing for chocolate. What's up with that??
I like not feeling like I want to hurl after eating, but I would like a bit more restriction, although the matzoh brei did not go so well last night, it was a little dryish, but yummy. It is something that my husband loves, and is a comfort type food, basically just matzoh crumbled up moistened with water, egg, pepper. I use butter in the frying pan and mix it up like scrambled eggs. Some say there are as many recipes for matzoh brei as people who love it, maybe that's true, but this is how I make it, and it's actually good.
Anyway, it's almost the weekend! YAY! I am getting color/blow out this afternoon, in an effort to beautify myself and feel good. Tomorrow I am taking Morgan to see Santa at the mall- not sure which one yet, but hopefully it will not be too stressful.
Have a great weekend!!
Annie
So, here I am again, being accountable to myself! Hello, Self!
Weight- down one lb since yesterday. So far this week down seven pounds.
Food:
Thursday PM
tea with milk and splenda for ride home
matzoh brei- one and half matzoh one egg, tsp butter, ketchup (estimated portion of family meal)
vodka and lemonade
three pieces of english toffee and two spoons of ice cream
Friday AM
coffee with half and half and splenda
3ish oz. pernil with 5 or so pieces of sweet plantains and 2 tbsp rice
tea with milk and splenda
I am not making the best choices, but I am eating protein up the ying yang. The pernil and plantains were a nice treat- not something I eat ever, but the mood struck. The portion was gigantic, so I spooned out some meat (served in separate container) and had a fewish pieces of plaintain. My friend ordered the rice- plain rice, so I had two plastic spoons of it which I mixed in with the cut up pork and plantains. Yum. Not stuffed, satisfied feeling, but seriously jonesing for chocolate. What's up with that??
I like not feeling like I want to hurl after eating, but I would like a bit more restriction, although the matzoh brei did not go so well last night, it was a little dryish, but yummy. It is something that my husband loves, and is a comfort type food, basically just matzoh crumbled up moistened with water, egg, pepper. I use butter in the frying pan and mix it up like scrambled eggs. Some say there are as many recipes for matzoh brei as people who love it, maybe that's true, but this is how I make it, and it's actually good.
Anyway, it's almost the weekend! YAY! I am getting color/blow out this afternoon, in an effort to beautify myself and feel good. Tomorrow I am taking Morgan to see Santa at the mall- not sure which one yet, but hopefully it will not be too stressful.
Have a great weekend!!
Annie
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Back in the Saddle
So, as part of my commitment to MYSELF, I am going to be blogging more. Thanks to everyone for your kind comments yesterday! It helps to know that I have you in my corner!
I must tell you though, that I cannot comment from work- very annoying, and while I am reading your blogs and rooting for you, you don't know that, unless I comment. I get it. I felt so good when I saw the comments you left, and I am committing to commenting from home to let you all know that I am here, and supporting you.
So, I have five cc's in my band! Yay! I am not, however in the green zone. I want to go back for another fill so bad, but I know that I need to give this level a chance. I think my sweet spot is 6.5-7. Anything more than that is treacherous for me, and even close to 7 is probably too much. I was pb'ing like crazy before, and that's not good. Having my band emptied makes me realize more than ever that I NEED this TOOL to help me. It's not the ultimate solution, however, I need to do the WORK. Maybe that's what having 5.0ccs will teach me? How to be able to eat like a regular person, but in moderation. Here's what I ate in the last 24 hours:
Wednesday
coffee with half and half and splenda
tea with milk
the chicken part of a chicken gyro- and one or two bites of the pita
one swedish fish
tea with milk
1 serving pita chips
1 vodka and lemonade
1/4 Trade Joe's spinach pie
1 vodka and lemonade
3 Trader Joe's English toffee pieces
Thursday
2 scrambled eggs, 1 slice of cheese, 2 pieces of toast
coffee with half and half
That's it so far. I want to keep it real, that's the reason for the food log. I am also using My Fitness P*al, which, I love. If you don't already use it, check it out, it's awesome.
In thinking about what I ate/could eat pre-unfill, I am really eating a lot more! I could never eat bread- let alone in the morning. I ate it because I figured it would potentially de-rail lunch hunger, and I could have a sp K protein shake for lunch. We will see about that shortly!
That's it. All's well on the personal front as well- fingers crossed.
xoxoxoxo
Annie
I must tell you though, that I cannot comment from work- very annoying, and while I am reading your blogs and rooting for you, you don't know that, unless I comment. I get it. I felt so good when I saw the comments you left, and I am committing to commenting from home to let you all know that I am here, and supporting you.
So, I have five cc's in my band! Yay! I am not, however in the green zone. I want to go back for another fill so bad, but I know that I need to give this level a chance. I think my sweet spot is 6.5-7. Anything more than that is treacherous for me, and even close to 7 is probably too much. I was pb'ing like crazy before, and that's not good. Having my band emptied makes me realize more than ever that I NEED this TOOL to help me. It's not the ultimate solution, however, I need to do the WORK. Maybe that's what having 5.0ccs will teach me? How to be able to eat like a regular person, but in moderation. Here's what I ate in the last 24 hours:
Wednesday
coffee with half and half and splenda
tea with milk
the chicken part of a chicken gyro- and one or two bites of the pita
one swedish fish
tea with milk
1 serving pita chips
1 vodka and lemonade
1/4 Trade Joe's spinach pie
1 vodka and lemonade
3 Trader Joe's English toffee pieces
Thursday
2 scrambled eggs, 1 slice of cheese, 2 pieces of toast
coffee with half and half
That's it so far. I want to keep it real, that's the reason for the food log. I am also using My Fitness P*al, which, I love. If you don't already use it, check it out, it's awesome.
In thinking about what I ate/could eat pre-unfill, I am really eating a lot more! I could never eat bread- let alone in the morning. I ate it because I figured it would potentially de-rail lunch hunger, and I could have a sp K protein shake for lunch. We will see about that shortly!
That's it. All's well on the personal front as well- fingers crossed.
xoxoxoxo
Annie
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Got My Fill
Hey Chicas,
So, I got my fill, and I feel great. I had 5.0 cc's put in- as you may remember I had it emptied, and have been living with it empty since 11/2. I gained nine pounds in that time, but the good news is that I am down six of those! Yay! I love liquids!
The good news is that I feel pretty motivated.
So, here's a NSV. Today I am wearing a dress- kind of shorter than I am comfortable with, but I am wearing tights. I feel self conscious today. I did get some feedback that I look great in this dress, and when I made a face and my usual "I feel fat, my legs look terrible in this, it's so short" comment, the person said I look great, in fact, they love seeing me in dresses, and that I am extremely beautiful.
Uh.
So, it's not a sexual harrassment thing, so don't get all uncomfortable. It was kind of a nice compliment, and I took it as such. I now, no longer feel AS self conscious in my short dress.
He he he
Things are better on the home front as well, which is great. I think I hit a low point last week, when I finally posted after so long. Things are looking up!
xoxoxo
Annie
So, I got my fill, and I feel great. I had 5.0 cc's put in- as you may remember I had it emptied, and have been living with it empty since 11/2. I gained nine pounds in that time, but the good news is that I am down six of those! Yay! I love liquids!
The good news is that I feel pretty motivated.
So, here's a NSV. Today I am wearing a dress- kind of shorter than I am comfortable with, but I am wearing tights. I feel self conscious today. I did get some feedback that I look great in this dress, and when I made a face and my usual "I feel fat, my legs look terrible in this, it's so short" comment, the person said I look great, in fact, they love seeing me in dresses, and that I am extremely beautiful.
Uh.
So, it's not a sexual harrassment thing, so don't get all uncomfortable. It was kind of a nice compliment, and I took it as such. I now, no longer feel AS self conscious in my short dress.
He he he
Things are better on the home front as well, which is great. I think I hit a low point last week, when I finally posted after so long. Things are looking up!
xoxoxo
Annie
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
The Last Month, and Happy Thanksgiving!
First of all, my sincerest and heartfelt Happy Thanksgiving to all of you lovely people who celebrate!
Now, what's new with me? It's been a WHOLE Month since I have blogged, although, I do read the blogs from time to time.
I had a tweak in my band that led me to be TOO TIGHT! Emergency room tight. Complete un-fill tight. Ugh.
I have been fluid free in my band for 2 weeks, and I have an appt. on the 29th to get some fluid put back in. I have been careful these last couple of weeks, but have been eating food that I hadn't been able to in a while. The overfill was completely my own fault- she wanted to put in a touch, I asked for more, the rest is history. When you cannot swallow your own spit, it sucks.
Life otherwise has been very stressful. I am blessed to have the problems I have because I can deal with them, but it's not always easy. I know everyone has their fair share these days, and I am not complaining. I am more sharing, and asking for support. My daughter is wonderful, she is growing up so quickly- 3 and a half now! wow! She is awesome.
Things with my husband have been very difficult. He is working with a new doctor, getting PT (very intense PT) three days a week, and is in a lot of pain all the time. Pain sucks. It changes everything. It changes your personality. It changes your life. We are making some strides in getting him into pain management, but that has it's challenges as well. There is a perception factor that if you are in pain and need pain medicine, that you are a druggie. It erodes your self esteem to have to ask for relief from pain- and it makes you angry to have to beg for something that will help. All very complicated.
I work in the health care industry, so I get it. I also get that patients have a right to NOT be in PAIN.
Having said all of that, it is hard to continue to be supportive in light of his difficult moods, especially when I have been carrying the load for two years now. I am blessed to be able to continue to do so, but it's hard to be superwoman, and do it with a sunny disposition 24/7!
I did start seeing a therapist a couple of months ago, and it is helpful. I am not on any anti-depressents any more- they numbed me out, and frankly, I have wasted enough time being numb. As uncomfortable as things are, I need to be 100% engaged, and present, and aware. I don't want to go through the motions anymore, and it's that spirit that makes me short with my husband when he expects me to be caring. I don't want to see a sink full of dishes when I get home with our daughter at 7:15 and then hear how hungry you are. Sorry. This anger comes out, his anger comes out, and because we don't want to fight in front of our daughter, it just festers.
Wow, this is becoming more cathartic than I expected!
So, who knows what is going to happen. I am happy he is going to be going to pain mgt in December. I am happy that I am not numb. I am happy I am getting a fill next Monday. I am also happy that I have my daughter, and I know that despite these problems, my husband and I love each other. I am not ready to throw in the towel yet and destroy a family.
Maybe the message is thankfulness. Be thankful for what you do have- I am. Be thankful for the problems you don't have- I am. Be thankful for being thankful.
Needless to say, all of this is complicated, confusing, stressful, and sad. I force myself not to turn to my old friend food during these times. Without the fluid in my band, it's easy to overdo it. I must remain mindful of the progress I have made, but I am also allowing myself a bit of a break. Obviously I am eating more that I had- out of hunger. I never had hunger when I was at a good adjustment (or even a too tight adjustment!)- I just need to get back there, without the pbing.
I am still holding onto 80 pounds lost, and I am thankful to that. I know once my band is adjusted again, I will be back on track- fall down seven times, get up eight, right??
Love to all, and all my best wishes for a wonderful holiday.
xoxoxox
Annie
Now, what's new with me? It's been a WHOLE Month since I have blogged, although, I do read the blogs from time to time.
I had a tweak in my band that led me to be TOO TIGHT! Emergency room tight. Complete un-fill tight. Ugh.
I have been fluid free in my band for 2 weeks, and I have an appt. on the 29th to get some fluid put back in. I have been careful these last couple of weeks, but have been eating food that I hadn't been able to in a while. The overfill was completely my own fault- she wanted to put in a touch, I asked for more, the rest is history. When you cannot swallow your own spit, it sucks.
Life otherwise has been very stressful. I am blessed to have the problems I have because I can deal with them, but it's not always easy. I know everyone has their fair share these days, and I am not complaining. I am more sharing, and asking for support. My daughter is wonderful, she is growing up so quickly- 3 and a half now! wow! She is awesome.
Things with my husband have been very difficult. He is working with a new doctor, getting PT (very intense PT) three days a week, and is in a lot of pain all the time. Pain sucks. It changes everything. It changes your personality. It changes your life. We are making some strides in getting him into pain management, but that has it's challenges as well. There is a perception factor that if you are in pain and need pain medicine, that you are a druggie. It erodes your self esteem to have to ask for relief from pain- and it makes you angry to have to beg for something that will help. All very complicated.
I work in the health care industry, so I get it. I also get that patients have a right to NOT be in PAIN.
Having said all of that, it is hard to continue to be supportive in light of his difficult moods, especially when I have been carrying the load for two years now. I am blessed to be able to continue to do so, but it's hard to be superwoman, and do it with a sunny disposition 24/7!
I did start seeing a therapist a couple of months ago, and it is helpful. I am not on any anti-depressents any more- they numbed me out, and frankly, I have wasted enough time being numb. As uncomfortable as things are, I need to be 100% engaged, and present, and aware. I don't want to go through the motions anymore, and it's that spirit that makes me short with my husband when he expects me to be caring. I don't want to see a sink full of dishes when I get home with our daughter at 7:15 and then hear how hungry you are. Sorry. This anger comes out, his anger comes out, and because we don't want to fight in front of our daughter, it just festers.
Wow, this is becoming more cathartic than I expected!
So, who knows what is going to happen. I am happy he is going to be going to pain mgt in December. I am happy that I am not numb. I am happy I am getting a fill next Monday. I am also happy that I have my daughter, and I know that despite these problems, my husband and I love each other. I am not ready to throw in the towel yet and destroy a family.
Maybe the message is thankfulness. Be thankful for what you do have- I am. Be thankful for the problems you don't have- I am. Be thankful for being thankful.
Needless to say, all of this is complicated, confusing, stressful, and sad. I force myself not to turn to my old friend food during these times. Without the fluid in my band, it's easy to overdo it. I must remain mindful of the progress I have made, but I am also allowing myself a bit of a break. Obviously I am eating more that I had- out of hunger. I never had hunger when I was at a good adjustment (or even a too tight adjustment!)- I just need to get back there, without the pbing.
I am still holding onto 80 pounds lost, and I am thankful to that. I know once my band is adjusted again, I will be back on track- fall down seven times, get up eight, right??
Love to all, and all my best wishes for a wonderful holiday.
xoxoxox
Annie
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Un-fill and Progress
Hey there,
So, I had an unfill last week. So far, no pb's, no sliming, no stuckness.... it's all good. I am holding steady at my weight, but enjoying food, for the first time, in a long time. Alas, I think I need a small fill- they took out 1.0cc, and I will probably get something less than that put back in. I feel better- which is the best part, but I think I need a bit more to get my scale moving again!
Thinking of all of you, and wishing you success!!!
Big hugs!
xoxox
A
So, I had an unfill last week. So far, no pb's, no sliming, no stuckness.... it's all good. I am holding steady at my weight, but enjoying food, for the first time, in a long time. Alas, I think I need a small fill- they took out 1.0cc, and I will probably get something less than that put back in. I feel better- which is the best part, but I think I need a bit more to get my scale moving again!
Thinking of all of you, and wishing you success!!!
Big hugs!
xoxox
A
Friday, October 14, 2011
What's Happening Hot Stuff?
So, it's been a pretty busy few weeks! While all you beautiful ladies were at BOOBS, I, too was on vacation. Hubby, and my dearest daughter and I all went down to Florida for ten days- spending a week in the beautiful Clearwater Beach Sand Key, and then the long weekend at Disney. The trip was great- we all had a wonderful time. Disney was a bit of a wash- literally! It rained (poured out of the heavens!) all weekend. My little girl had the deluxe princess experience at the Bibbidy Boppity Boutique- adorable! She loved every minute of it. The pictures were beautiful too- totally worth the expense.
The next day we headed to the Magic K*gdom- it was literally pouring the entire time we were there, so we cut it a bit short, since most of the outside attractions were closed :( My little girl is only three, though, so she had no expectations, and was not disappointed. It is a bit overwhelming as it is, but she enjoyed the monorail, the princess meet and greet, and It's a Small World ride.
Back to work this past Wednesday- the work didn't stop while I was gone, and I have been catching up ever since.
On the band front, I was tighter than a drum for my entire vacation. I hate being tight, and I realize that while I don't have any reflux- D.G., that pb'ing every meal is not a good thing. For me, it is a vicious cycle- I get stuck once, and then am too tight, keep eating, pb- and on and on. Anyhow, I went to see the lovely Dr. Fielding at NYU yesterday- (he is very handsome in person!) and got 1.0 cc out. I feel so much better already. I lost 25 lbs since my last visit, which was a few months ago- June? But, I haven't lost a thing in the last mont or so. The same two pounds up and down. I am confident that this unfill will right my wagon, and once I am less inflamed I will be able to get the scale moving again.
Another item that I need to begin to seriously address is exercise. I have a million excuses, but that has to stop. Immediately!!! I am going to discuss a plan with my hubby this weekend, and will update you next time I blog.
The pics from BOOBS were awesome, and it looks like everyone had a great time! I hope to attend next year!
Oh, btw- my bandiversary was on 10/1! I am down 90 pounds! Woo hoo! I was hoping for 100, but I will get there- I am in this for the long haul! xoxoxox
Annie
The next day we headed to the Magic K*gdom- it was literally pouring the entire time we were there, so we cut it a bit short, since most of the outside attractions were closed :( My little girl is only three, though, so she had no expectations, and was not disappointed. It is a bit overwhelming as it is, but she enjoyed the monorail, the princess meet and greet, and It's a Small World ride.
Back to work this past Wednesday- the work didn't stop while I was gone, and I have been catching up ever since.
On the band front, I was tighter than a drum for my entire vacation. I hate being tight, and I realize that while I don't have any reflux- D.G., that pb'ing every meal is not a good thing. For me, it is a vicious cycle- I get stuck once, and then am too tight, keep eating, pb- and on and on. Anyhow, I went to see the lovely Dr. Fielding at NYU yesterday- (he is very handsome in person!) and got 1.0 cc out. I feel so much better already. I lost 25 lbs since my last visit, which was a few months ago- June? But, I haven't lost a thing in the last mont or so. The same two pounds up and down. I am confident that this unfill will right my wagon, and once I am less inflamed I will be able to get the scale moving again.
Another item that I need to begin to seriously address is exercise. I have a million excuses, but that has to stop. Immediately!!! I am going to discuss a plan with my hubby this weekend, and will update you next time I blog.
The pics from BOOBS were awesome, and it looks like everyone had a great time! I hope to attend next year!
Oh, btw- my bandiversary was on 10/1! I am down 90 pounds! Woo hoo! I was hoping for 100, but I will get there- I am in this for the long haul! xoxoxox
Annie
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Trip Planning
Hey Ladies,
Just wanted to wish you a boobilicous adventure this weekend! We are headed down to Florida for 10 days or so, to spend time with Hubby's family, and then a long weekend in Disney! Yay! It will be the first time for my daughter, who was three in May- I think she is the best age for this now- very excited!
I hope I can come to B(.)(.)Bs next year!
xoxo
Annie
Just wanted to wish you a boobilicous adventure this weekend! We are headed down to Florida for 10 days or so, to spend time with Hubby's family, and then a long weekend in Disney! Yay! It will be the first time for my daughter, who was three in May- I think she is the best age for this now- very excited!
I hope I can come to B(.)(.)Bs next year!
xoxo
Annie
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Update and Jeggins
Hello friends,
So. I am off the Zoloft, as I indicated in my post last week. So far, so good. Two things I notice immediately have changed- 1. My libido is in overdrive, and 2. I seem to have a bit more of an "edge" to me than I did while on the medication. Neither is a bad thing in my mind. It certainly provides me with more authenticity- I feel less blah, which is amazing.
I had my therapy appt. last week, and I go again today. I am excited. I was originally going to cancel, since I need to pick my child up right after, and her father can't pick her up today, but I think I am going to modify my session by either starting earlier, by 15 minutes, or by ending a little earlier. I would rather not cancel. I think it's too important to me right now, and I have some things to discuss with her.
I am down a pound! Yay! This is the same pound that I took credit for last week though, but had gained back. So, anyway, I am officially at my low weight during this journey. Yippee!
So, my family had a small birthday party for me on Saturday, and I had nothing to wear. I went to LB to see what was up- both with the "fashions" and my sizes. I take a 16W in pants and a 16 or 18 in tops! Yay! I bought a pair of jeggings and a nice top, along with a pair of ballet flats. Love! I can't believe I am wearing jeggings, but I really loved the way they looked. They made my legs look so skinny, for me, and the top had just enough to cover my mommy pouch. See pics below of the outfit:
I thought it looked pretty good!
(The pics above are not of me, but of the LB model from their website!)
xoxo
A
So. I am off the Zoloft, as I indicated in my post last week. So far, so good. Two things I notice immediately have changed- 1. My libido is in overdrive, and 2. I seem to have a bit more of an "edge" to me than I did while on the medication. Neither is a bad thing in my mind. It certainly provides me with more authenticity- I feel less blah, which is amazing.
I had my therapy appt. last week, and I go again today. I am excited. I was originally going to cancel, since I need to pick my child up right after, and her father can't pick her up today, but I think I am going to modify my session by either starting earlier, by 15 minutes, or by ending a little earlier. I would rather not cancel. I think it's too important to me right now, and I have some things to discuss with her.
I am down a pound! Yay! This is the same pound that I took credit for last week though, but had gained back. So, anyway, I am officially at my low weight during this journey. Yippee!
So, my family had a small birthday party for me on Saturday, and I had nothing to wear. I went to LB to see what was up- both with the "fashions" and my sizes. I take a 16W in pants and a 16 or 18 in tops! Yay! I bought a pair of jeggings and a nice top, along with a pair of ballet flats. Love! I can't believe I am wearing jeggings, but I really loved the way they looked. They made my legs look so skinny, for me, and the top had just enough to cover my mommy pouch. See pics below of the outfit:
(The pics above are not of me, but of the LB model from their website!)
xoxo
A
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Back in the Saddle Again!
Lovelies,
I am back in the saddle. The therapy saddle, that is. I did it- I finally got myself an appointment with a new therapist- and I am very excited! My appt is this evening, at 5pm. Hubby is picking up my lovely little girl, and I am getting a break.
Okay, so things are not perfect in BandAid land- like everyone else, I am trying to adjust my lifestyle to our economy, and sometimes it's just not easy. I realize, and have said many times, that I thank God for my problems- they are managable to me, and that is fine. Other people's problems are much worse than mine, so please don't think I am complaining. I'm not. What I am doing is taking charge of me- as the beautiful Read said earlier- I am "owning me". Life is, as the diving diva Barbara, has stated, "too short". It is. That is for sure.
I am not happy lately, and that's not good. It affects the people around me- home, work, everywhere. I owe it to myself and everyone around me to get my shit straight, and that's what I am starting tonight.
Interestingly, I have stopped taking Zol*ft, and I feel fantastic. I think I was numbed out, kind of not dealing with the stuff going on in my life- husband not working, mounting financial pressure, feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, etc. For me, Zol*ft helped me cope by not forcing me to cope- that's probably not clear. I feel almost like I was in a self induced emotional coma- I wasn't dealing with things because I just couldn't, and the meds kept things in check.
Lately, I feel like I am emerging from a coccoon. A fat coccoon, and a anti depressant coccoon. Yay me!
My little girl started preschool on Friday. God, I love that kid. She is my shining star, and the numero uno reason for me straightening myself out!
BTW, my birthday was Saturday, and I am another year older. I think I am going to seriously start lying about my age.
Lovalu!
A
I am back in the saddle. The therapy saddle, that is. I did it- I finally got myself an appointment with a new therapist- and I am very excited! My appt is this evening, at 5pm. Hubby is picking up my lovely little girl, and I am getting a break.
Okay, so things are not perfect in BandAid land- like everyone else, I am trying to adjust my lifestyle to our economy, and sometimes it's just not easy. I realize, and have said many times, that I thank God for my problems- they are managable to me, and that is fine. Other people's problems are much worse than mine, so please don't think I am complaining. I'm not. What I am doing is taking charge of me- as the beautiful Read said earlier- I am "owning me". Life is, as the diving diva Barbara, has stated, "too short". It is. That is for sure.
I am not happy lately, and that's not good. It affects the people around me- home, work, everywhere. I owe it to myself and everyone around me to get my shit straight, and that's what I am starting tonight.
Interestingly, I have stopped taking Zol*ft, and I feel fantastic. I think I was numbed out, kind of not dealing with the stuff going on in my life- husband not working, mounting financial pressure, feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, etc. For me, Zol*ft helped me cope by not forcing me to cope- that's probably not clear. I feel almost like I was in a self induced emotional coma- I wasn't dealing with things because I just couldn't, and the meds kept things in check.
Lately, I feel like I am emerging from a coccoon. A fat coccoon, and a anti depressant coccoon. Yay me!
BTW, my birthday was Saturday, and I am another year older. I think I am going to seriously start lying about my age.
Lovalu!
A
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Photo Essay- Before, After, Lunch, 90!!!! Pounds Down!
Hello Friends,
I am super excited, because I am 90 Pounds Down!!!!!!!
Here is a comparison shot of me from last July and today! I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
July 2010
I am super excited, because I am 90 Pounds Down!!!!!!!
Here is a comparison shot of me from last July and today! I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
July 2010
Today!
I am so excited! Hey, check out the collar bone in the today pic! And, it's the same string of pearls- notice how much longer they seem now???!!!
I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
I am jelly that I am not going to BOOBs, but, things are too hectic now for me to consider a fun trip without the fam. We are going to Florida for 2 weeks in the end of September/early October, and it conflicts. I want to go next year- hopefully, there will be one in 2012!
My little girl starts nursery school on Friday! I attended the orientation yesterday at 1pm- doesn't anyone work? Answer: Most Mom's stay home in my town. Oh well. I am also the only one who asked about the snack, drink, shoes, potty, swimming, etc. At least I didn't feel like the oldest one in the room! There was only one early twenties couple, the rest were 30+, which is a relief.
Love to all, back to the grind!
Annie
PS- I cannot comment from work, which is annoying. I read your blogs daily, and send you my support and love!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Great News!
My breast biopsy was negative! It is confirmed to be a fibroadenoma, and is a benign tumor! YAY! Now, I can relax, and focus on more pressing issues in my life- yeah, I've got those too.
Wonderful things in my life:
- I don't have breast cancer!
- My daughter is my sunshine, my moonlight, my love, and the light of my life
- My health is getting better with each pound lost- my bp, cholesterol, etc. are all excellent
- I've lost 87 pounds!
- My career is wonderful
- I passed my PMP! Woo Hoo!!
Things to improve on:
- Relationship with hubby- he's depressed, I'm in denial, he hasn't worked in two years- enough said
- Payoff bills, streamline expenses, build up nest egg
- Move more
- Live in the moment
This scare has me thinking that I need to start paying attention to what is happening, (or not happening) around me. I think I need to get a therapist or something. I hate whining on this blog- it's about my band, right? The other thing is that I am ashamed- ashamed my hubby could be perceived to be a loser, afraid that I am a loser by extension- or at least an enabling co-dependant doormat- :)
I am lucky that I can support myself, and my daughter. Being the sole family support, however, makes things tight. I need to see some effort from my husband. I know he has pain, but get back to the MD! I have made things plain that he needs to get an income, stat, but it doesn't seem to be working. He's very sensitive, and I hate fighting.
Didn't I say I wasn't going to whine??? Oh well.
Thanks for listening. The best thing- I don't have breast cancer!
Friday, August 19, 2011
A Lot Going On
So, I haven't posted this week because I haven't been ready to share something scary that is going on with me. I mentioned that I had my first mammogram on Friday of last week. I was called back in for additional films- they told me in advance this would happen, but I was nervous anyway. Long story short, after more films on the left, and an ultrasound, a lump was discovered in my breast.
To say that I am terrified is an understatement.
After crying hysterically, the radiologist told me that it appears to be a fibroadenoma (a benign tumor). They want to take a biopsy on Monday, to be sure that there is nothing to be concerned about.
I have shared this with some of my close friends and family, and the consensus is not to worry! I find it hard not to worry, but I am trying to stay positive, and not get alarmed over nothing.
The truth is that this is a wake up call- regardless of the outcome of Monday.
My weight is doing well, I am a pound or so up or down each day, but I think the stress is doing it to me, and maybe salt, as well.
This post is not a plea, but rather an attempt to share. I am fine.
Have a great weekend, and thank you for you support!!
Annie
xoxoxo
To say that I am terrified is an understatement.
After crying hysterically, the radiologist told me that it appears to be a fibroadenoma (a benign tumor). They want to take a biopsy on Monday, to be sure that there is nothing to be concerned about.
I have shared this with some of my close friends and family, and the consensus is not to worry! I find it hard not to worry, but I am trying to stay positive, and not get alarmed over nothing.
The truth is that this is a wake up call- regardless of the outcome of Monday.
My weight is doing well, I am a pound or so up or down each day, but I think the stress is doing it to me, and maybe salt, as well.
This post is not a plea, but rather an attempt to share. I am fine.
Have a great weekend, and thank you for you support!!
Annie
xoxoxo
Friday, August 12, 2011
BYOC!!!
There is NUSSING better than a Friday, is there?
Oh wait – yes there is. BYOC on a Friday! Or shoe shopping. With purses amuck. Or about a million other things BUT for right now I’ve got NUSSING but a little BYOC on a Friday – so take it or leave it!
BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy – 5 questions you can copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – in an effort to get to know your fellow bloggers better and to give your blog brain a break!
Enjoy!
1. I have to do some MAJOR cleaning tonight…which is prompting me to ask…what is the absolute worst thing you hate to clean or cleaning chore you hate the most? (vacuuming, dusting, laundry, toilets, floors, etc.)
I dislike cleaning, but, it is a necessary evil! I don't mind cleaning the kitchen, the dishes, the counters, etc. I like doing laundry, the washing, drying and folding part are all fine. The putting away! NO!!!! I hate it. As a result, I often have a husband buying socks (they are clean and in the laundry basket, or one of them!), and about four filled baskets of clean laundry. Sigh.... I also dislike cleaning floors. Luckily, my hubby does that.
2. Brown or Black? Fly or Drive? Hot dog or Burger? Gold or Silver?
I like both brown and black, but have much more black in my wardrobe.
I like driving, and road trips are fun. Our recent vacations have all been by car- Hilton Head, Maine, Jersey Shore, Adirondacks, but, I do like to fly. I don't like sitting next to strangers though, but now that I have lost EIGHTY SIX POUNDS, I expect my next flight, at the end of the month, to Nashville for business, should be fine.
I like both hot dogs and good burgers, but, alas, neither like me at the moment. The band does not do well with burgers, and hot dogs are iffy.
Gold or silver...hmmm??? White gold and platinum are my faves!
3. Repeat question: I’m going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them or even if a relationships exists – and you then try to describe that person in 5 short sentences/words.
Maternal Grandmother
Loving
Outgoing
Died too young
Sunday dinners after mass
One of the best people to have ever lived.
4. Even if you don’t have kids, how do you feel about kids in multiple sports during their school years? Were you in MULTIPLE sports all during school? Forced or by choice?
My daughter is three, and we did try dancing school last year, but she didn't like to follow instructions, and the teacher was not attentive enough. We may try soccer, this year, maybe. My step son is not a joiner, although, he did play basketball in grade school
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
Real life is good, I am coming down from the stress of studying like a maniac for the last five months, so I feel like I have too much time on my hands in the evening. Not that I am being productive (cleaning, laundry)! I am relaxing!
My weight is coming down, and that feels great. I am averaging two pounds a week, or so, and I love it. My band is a little finicky, but I have mostly figured it out. I got my hair done today!!!! Yay! I rewarded myself after getting my first mammogram. It didn't hurt, but is stressful. I am at the age to get one, so I did, must, I must admit it was anxiety provoking. I hate the unknown!
Smooches!!
Annie
xoxo
Oh wait – yes there is. BYOC on a Friday! Or shoe shopping. With purses amuck. Or about a million other things BUT for right now I’ve got NUSSING but a little BYOC on a Friday – so take it or leave it!
BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy – 5 questions you can copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – in an effort to get to know your fellow bloggers better and to give your blog brain a break!
Enjoy!
1. I have to do some MAJOR cleaning tonight…which is prompting me to ask…what is the absolute worst thing you hate to clean or cleaning chore you hate the most? (vacuuming, dusting, laundry, toilets, floors, etc.)
I dislike cleaning, but, it is a necessary evil! I don't mind cleaning the kitchen, the dishes, the counters, etc. I like doing laundry, the washing, drying and folding part are all fine. The putting away! NO!!!! I hate it. As a result, I often have a husband buying socks (they are clean and in the laundry basket, or one of them!), and about four filled baskets of clean laundry. Sigh.... I also dislike cleaning floors. Luckily, my hubby does that.
2. Brown or Black? Fly or Drive? Hot dog or Burger? Gold or Silver?
I like both brown and black, but have much more black in my wardrobe.
I like driving, and road trips are fun. Our recent vacations have all been by car- Hilton Head, Maine, Jersey Shore, Adirondacks, but, I do like to fly. I don't like sitting next to strangers though, but now that I have lost EIGHTY SIX POUNDS, I expect my next flight, at the end of the month, to Nashville for business, should be fine.
I like both hot dogs and good burgers, but, alas, neither like me at the moment. The band does not do well with burgers, and hot dogs are iffy.
Gold or silver...hmmm??? White gold and platinum are my faves!
3. Repeat question: I’m going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them or even if a relationships exists – and you then try to describe that person in 5 short sentences/words.
Maternal Grandmother
Loving
Outgoing
Died too young
Sunday dinners after mass
One of the best people to have ever lived.
4. Even if you don’t have kids, how do you feel about kids in multiple sports during their school years? Were you in MULTIPLE sports all during school? Forced or by choice?
My daughter is three, and we did try dancing school last year, but she didn't like to follow instructions, and the teacher was not attentive enough. We may try soccer, this year, maybe. My step son is not a joiner, although, he did play basketball in grade school
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.
Real life is good, I am coming down from the stress of studying like a maniac for the last five months, so I feel like I have too much time on my hands in the evening. Not that I am being productive (cleaning, laundry)! I am relaxing!
My weight is coming down, and that feels great. I am averaging two pounds a week, or so, and I love it. My band is a little finicky, but I have mostly figured it out. I got my hair done today!!!! Yay! I rewarded myself after getting my first mammogram. It didn't hurt, but is stressful. I am at the age to get one, so I did, must, I must admit it was anxiety provoking. I hate the unknown!
Smooches!!
Annie
xoxo
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Protein! Feeling Good
Hello Lovelies,
Today is a good day. I have my PMP behind me, and I am enjoying the summer even more that before! I am reading everyone's blogs, and am noticing the "protein" theme, and I need help. I need a switch from my usual food choices, and I would love some recommendations on great tasting, no aftertaste, chocolately protein shakes. I used to drink Slim* Fas_t High Protein, but, it's a little light on the protein.
Any suggestions??
Still holding at 84 down, TOM presently, expect big win next week!!!
Smooch!
A
Today is a good day. I have my PMP behind me, and I am enjoying the summer even more that before! I am reading everyone's blogs, and am noticing the "protein" theme, and I need help. I need a switch from my usual food choices, and I would love some recommendations on great tasting, no aftertaste, chocolately protein shakes. I used to drink Slim* Fas_t High Protein, but, it's a little light on the protein.
Any suggestions??
Still holding at 84 down, TOM presently, expect big win next week!!!
Smooch!
A
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