So, what started out with a bang, is ending up with a bit of a sputter. I did not eat well today!
No details- it's too depressing.
Work is stressful, but normally, I thrive on that. I just seem somewhat lacking in motivation in general lately- need to do so many things- work, home, family, money management, etc. Just like everyone else, I know, but sometimes I feel like my subconscious rebels and does the opposite of what I really need to do. Don't worry, though, I will be discussing this with my therapist on Saturday! She always has good insights, and her advice, which is often the advice I would give someone in my situation, is dead on, and somehow feels more do-able when coming from her, rather than from me.
No pity party here though- tomorrow is another day to succeed- Fall down seven times, get up eight!
So, that's what I will be doing tomorrow. For tonight, I am just going to chill and try to get to bed at a reasonable time.
Good night friends, and stay strong!
xoxo
Annie
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Day 2 of Blogging RE-Committment
Lovies!
Today has been a fairly good day, food wise, and an eye opening one at that.
First- what did I eat today? Hmm..
large iced coffee with splenda and fat free half and half
12 ounces of pineapple low fat cottage cheese
pita chips
tea with milk and splenda
water
Now, this could be better, I know, but let's focus on the positives, shall we? 1. I ate protein for lunch- in fact, I not only ate protein, but I actually ate something I brought from home for lunch! Yay me!! The pita chips I had in the fridge at work, so they went nicely with the cottage cheese- like a chips and dip thing.
I have gotten into a bad habit of ordering food for lunch. Very bad habit. Tuna melt on a roll- I only can eat about 1/4 of the roll, or I puke it up, but seriously? Tuna with mayo and cheese? Not necessary. My other lunch of choice has been 2 beef patties. Jamaican. I usually end up puking most of it, but there is something I love about them. I need to put these two habits on hold. Not good.
What will I bring tomorrow? Maybe I will make egg salad, or tuna? I don't mind the mayo bit, especially if I am in control of how much I add. I need something crunchy with this. Maybe some kind of vegetable? We will see. Small steps.
Speaking of steps, I saw one of my colleagues this morning, and she looks fabulous. We were discussing another fab looking colleague, who has lost like 90 or more lbs this year alone. She is doing it through eating very low carb, exercising like crazy, and having her thyroid condition diagnosed and finally treated. She looks a-mazing! The first colleage I spoke of, let's call her Monica, also looks great. Turns out she is biking to work- admirable! and is doing the "slow carb" diet. Protein, beans and veggies at every meal. No white carbs- the deadly dairy, sugar and flour combo. Now, this is intriguiging me for some reason.
My brother is on some bean kick as well, and is a runner to boot. He is one of those people who eats the same thing every day, runs every day at lunchtime- you know the type. He eats beans every meal- with kale, and some kind of protein. Turns out, that's kind of the thing that the slow carb diet advocates, PLUS, it calls for a cheat day, which in my past experience, makes a diet (I was doing a low carb plus working out diet) very do-able.
What's all this rambling about anyway? I don't know- I guess I am kind of excited to be back!!
Oh, and I wanted to tell you that I have a new therapist, Jill, who I love! She is kick ass!
smooches!!
A
Today has been a fairly good day, food wise, and an eye opening one at that.
First- what did I eat today? Hmm..
large iced coffee with splenda and fat free half and half
12 ounces of pineapple low fat cottage cheese
pita chips
tea with milk and splenda
water
Now, this could be better, I know, but let's focus on the positives, shall we? 1. I ate protein for lunch- in fact, I not only ate protein, but I actually ate something I brought from home for lunch! Yay me!! The pita chips I had in the fridge at work, so they went nicely with the cottage cheese- like a chips and dip thing.
I have gotten into a bad habit of ordering food for lunch. Very bad habit. Tuna melt on a roll- I only can eat about 1/4 of the roll, or I puke it up, but seriously? Tuna with mayo and cheese? Not necessary. My other lunch of choice has been 2 beef patties. Jamaican. I usually end up puking most of it, but there is something I love about them. I need to put these two habits on hold. Not good.
What will I bring tomorrow? Maybe I will make egg salad, or tuna? I don't mind the mayo bit, especially if I am in control of how much I add. I need something crunchy with this. Maybe some kind of vegetable? We will see. Small steps.
Speaking of steps, I saw one of my colleagues this morning, and she looks fabulous. We were discussing another fab looking colleague, who has lost like 90 or more lbs this year alone. She is doing it through eating very low carb, exercising like crazy, and having her thyroid condition diagnosed and finally treated. She looks a-mazing! The first colleage I spoke of, let's call her Monica, also looks great. Turns out she is biking to work- admirable! and is doing the "slow carb" diet. Protein, beans and veggies at every meal. No white carbs- the deadly dairy, sugar and flour combo. Now, this is intriguiging me for some reason.
My brother is on some bean kick as well, and is a runner to boot. He is one of those people who eats the same thing every day, runs every day at lunchtime- you know the type. He eats beans every meal- with kale, and some kind of protein. Turns out, that's kind of the thing that the slow carb diet advocates, PLUS, it calls for a cheat day, which in my past experience, makes a diet (I was doing a low carb plus working out diet) very do-able.
What's all this rambling about anyway? I don't know- I guess I am kind of excited to be back!!
Oh, and I wanted to tell you that I have a new therapist, Jill, who I love! She is kick ass!
smooches!!
A
Monday, August 6, 2012
I'm BAACK!!!
Hello People Fighting the Good Fight!
I am back!
I have taken a hiatus for eight months now- can't believe it has been that long!
Let's take some time to get re-acquainted...shall we? I still have my band, am still at the same job, married to the same guy, and have no new children here, or on the way. We haven't moved, nobody died, and nothing too terrible has happened outside of the ordinary terrible things that happen to regular people like me.
I guess I just gave up there for a bit.
The band is so finicky, and when it got hard, I bailed. I haven't been to the doctor since I last blogged either, oops! I am up 12 pounds from the time I last posted my weight on here, but about 19 from my ALL TIME LOW- which was a result of being too tight, unable to swallow my own spit, and landing in the ER for a complete unfill back in November.
I am neither tight nor loose. I still pb almost daily if I am not careful, and sometimes it feels like I don't eat anything. I guess that's not really true though, because the sliders still slide- ice cream, cookies, crunchy things, etc. I still need to be careful with meals, but otherwise, I have been eating everything bad, and not paying attention. I am coming clean here people!
Why today? Why right now to come clean? Well, I'm bored. Yes, I said it. I'm bored with being a size 18/20. Bored with the cheat foods that frankly, are not doing much for me anymore. My birthday is next month, and maybe that's another reason. Middle age is rapidly approaching, and I need to get this ass in gear! What else, oh, our annual employee health assessment is happening, and I don't want to be up from last year- when I weighed myself this morning, I was up four pounds from my weight last year, so that's a motivation. Also, I am joining our work walking challenge- 8,000 steps a day from September to November, and the winning teams get entered into a raffle to win a trip to ____. Very exciting, and motivating.
Also, I am just back from vacation, and it feels like the time is right to get back to business!
Hope you are all fabulous and doing well!
xoxo
Annie
I am back!
I have taken a hiatus for eight months now- can't believe it has been that long!
Let's take some time to get re-acquainted...shall we? I still have my band, am still at the same job, married to the same guy, and have no new children here, or on the way. We haven't moved, nobody died, and nothing too terrible has happened outside of the ordinary terrible things that happen to regular people like me.
I guess I just gave up there for a bit.
The band is so finicky, and when it got hard, I bailed. I haven't been to the doctor since I last blogged either, oops! I am up 12 pounds from the time I last posted my weight on here, but about 19 from my ALL TIME LOW- which was a result of being too tight, unable to swallow my own spit, and landing in the ER for a complete unfill back in November.
I am neither tight nor loose. I still pb almost daily if I am not careful, and sometimes it feels like I don't eat anything. I guess that's not really true though, because the sliders still slide- ice cream, cookies, crunchy things, etc. I still need to be careful with meals, but otherwise, I have been eating everything bad, and not paying attention. I am coming clean here people!
Why today? Why right now to come clean? Well, I'm bored. Yes, I said it. I'm bored with being a size 18/20. Bored with the cheat foods that frankly, are not doing much for me anymore. My birthday is next month, and maybe that's another reason. Middle age is rapidly approaching, and I need to get this ass in gear! What else, oh, our annual employee health assessment is happening, and I don't want to be up from last year- when I weighed myself this morning, I was up four pounds from my weight last year, so that's a motivation. Also, I am joining our work walking challenge- 8,000 steps a day from September to November, and the winning teams get entered into a raffle to win a trip to ____. Very exciting, and motivating.
Also, I am just back from vacation, and it feels like the time is right to get back to business!
Hope you are all fabulous and doing well!
xoxo
Annie
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