Hey there,
So, I had an unfill last week. So far, no pb's, no sliming, no stuckness.... it's all good. I am holding steady at my weight, but enjoying food, for the first time, in a long time. Alas, I think I need a small fill- they took out 1.0cc, and I will probably get something less than that put back in. I feel better- which is the best part, but I think I need a bit more to get my scale moving again!
Thinking of all of you, and wishing you success!!!
Big hugs!
xoxox
A
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
What's Happening Hot Stuff?
So, it's been a pretty busy few weeks! While all you beautiful ladies were at BOOBS, I, too was on vacation. Hubby, and my dearest daughter and I all went down to Florida for ten days- spending a week in the beautiful Clearwater Beach Sand Key, and then the long weekend at Disney. The trip was great- we all had a wonderful time. Disney was a bit of a wash- literally! It rained (poured out of the heavens!) all weekend. My little girl had the deluxe princess experience at the Bibbidy Boppity Boutique- adorable! She loved every minute of it. The pictures were beautiful too- totally worth the expense.
The next day we headed to the Magic K*gdom- it was literally pouring the entire time we were there, so we cut it a bit short, since most of the outside attractions were closed :( My little girl is only three, though, so she had no expectations, and was not disappointed. It is a bit overwhelming as it is, but she enjoyed the monorail, the princess meet and greet, and It's a Small World ride.
Back to work this past Wednesday- the work didn't stop while I was gone, and I have been catching up ever since.
On the band front, I was tighter than a drum for my entire vacation. I hate being tight, and I realize that while I don't have any reflux- D.G., that pb'ing every meal is not a good thing. For me, it is a vicious cycle- I get stuck once, and then am too tight, keep eating, pb- and on and on. Anyhow, I went to see the lovely Dr. Fielding at NYU yesterday- (he is very handsome in person!) and got 1.0 cc out. I feel so much better already. I lost 25 lbs since my last visit, which was a few months ago- June? But, I haven't lost a thing in the last mont or so. The same two pounds up and down. I am confident that this unfill will right my wagon, and once I am less inflamed I will be able to get the scale moving again.
Another item that I need to begin to seriously address is exercise. I have a million excuses, but that has to stop. Immediately!!! I am going to discuss a plan with my hubby this weekend, and will update you next time I blog.
The pics from BOOBS were awesome, and it looks like everyone had a great time! I hope to attend next year!
Oh, btw- my bandiversary was on 10/1! I am down 90 pounds! Woo hoo! I was hoping for 100, but I will get there- I am in this for the long haul! xoxoxox
Annie
The next day we headed to the Magic K*gdom- it was literally pouring the entire time we were there, so we cut it a bit short, since most of the outside attractions were closed :( My little girl is only three, though, so she had no expectations, and was not disappointed. It is a bit overwhelming as it is, but she enjoyed the monorail, the princess meet and greet, and It's a Small World ride.
Back to work this past Wednesday- the work didn't stop while I was gone, and I have been catching up ever since.
On the band front, I was tighter than a drum for my entire vacation. I hate being tight, and I realize that while I don't have any reflux- D.G., that pb'ing every meal is not a good thing. For me, it is a vicious cycle- I get stuck once, and then am too tight, keep eating, pb- and on and on. Anyhow, I went to see the lovely Dr. Fielding at NYU yesterday- (he is very handsome in person!) and got 1.0 cc out. I feel so much better already. I lost 25 lbs since my last visit, which was a few months ago- June? But, I haven't lost a thing in the last mont or so. The same two pounds up and down. I am confident that this unfill will right my wagon, and once I am less inflamed I will be able to get the scale moving again.
Another item that I need to begin to seriously address is exercise. I have a million excuses, but that has to stop. Immediately!!! I am going to discuss a plan with my hubby this weekend, and will update you next time I blog.
The pics from BOOBS were awesome, and it looks like everyone had a great time! I hope to attend next year!
Oh, btw- my bandiversary was on 10/1! I am down 90 pounds! Woo hoo! I was hoping for 100, but I will get there- I am in this for the long haul! xoxoxox
Annie
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Trip Planning
Hey Ladies,
Just wanted to wish you a boobilicous adventure this weekend! We are headed down to Florida for 10 days or so, to spend time with Hubby's family, and then a long weekend in Disney! Yay! It will be the first time for my daughter, who was three in May- I think she is the best age for this now- very excited!
I hope I can come to B(.)(.)Bs next year!
xoxo
Annie
Just wanted to wish you a boobilicous adventure this weekend! We are headed down to Florida for 10 days or so, to spend time with Hubby's family, and then a long weekend in Disney! Yay! It will be the first time for my daughter, who was three in May- I think she is the best age for this now- very excited!
I hope I can come to B(.)(.)Bs next year!
xoxo
Annie
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Update and Jeggins
Hello friends,
So. I am off the Zoloft, as I indicated in my post last week. So far, so good. Two things I notice immediately have changed- 1. My libido is in overdrive, and 2. I seem to have a bit more of an "edge" to me than I did while on the medication. Neither is a bad thing in my mind. It certainly provides me with more authenticity- I feel less blah, which is amazing.
I had my therapy appt. last week, and I go again today. I am excited. I was originally going to cancel, since I need to pick my child up right after, and her father can't pick her up today, but I think I am going to modify my session by either starting earlier, by 15 minutes, or by ending a little earlier. I would rather not cancel. I think it's too important to me right now, and I have some things to discuss with her.
I am down a pound! Yay! This is the same pound that I took credit for last week though, but had gained back. So, anyway, I am officially at my low weight during this journey. Yippee!
So, my family had a small birthday party for me on Saturday, and I had nothing to wear. I went to LB to see what was up- both with the "fashions" and my sizes. I take a 16W in pants and a 16 or 18 in tops! Yay! I bought a pair of jeggings and a nice top, along with a pair of ballet flats. Love! I can't believe I am wearing jeggings, but I really loved the way they looked. They made my legs look so skinny, for me, and the top had just enough to cover my mommy pouch. See pics below of the outfit:
I thought it looked pretty good!
(The pics above are not of me, but of the LB model from their website!)
xoxo
A
So. I am off the Zoloft, as I indicated in my post last week. So far, so good. Two things I notice immediately have changed- 1. My libido is in overdrive, and 2. I seem to have a bit more of an "edge" to me than I did while on the medication. Neither is a bad thing in my mind. It certainly provides me with more authenticity- I feel less blah, which is amazing.
I had my therapy appt. last week, and I go again today. I am excited. I was originally going to cancel, since I need to pick my child up right after, and her father can't pick her up today, but I think I am going to modify my session by either starting earlier, by 15 minutes, or by ending a little earlier. I would rather not cancel. I think it's too important to me right now, and I have some things to discuss with her.
I am down a pound! Yay! This is the same pound that I took credit for last week though, but had gained back. So, anyway, I am officially at my low weight during this journey. Yippee!
So, my family had a small birthday party for me on Saturday, and I had nothing to wear. I went to LB to see what was up- both with the "fashions" and my sizes. I take a 16W in pants and a 16 or 18 in tops! Yay! I bought a pair of jeggings and a nice top, along with a pair of ballet flats. Love! I can't believe I am wearing jeggings, but I really loved the way they looked. They made my legs look so skinny, for me, and the top had just enough to cover my mommy pouch. See pics below of the outfit:
(The pics above are not of me, but of the LB model from their website!)
xoxo
A
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Back in the Saddle Again!
Lovelies,
I am back in the saddle. The therapy saddle, that is. I did it- I finally got myself an appointment with a new therapist- and I am very excited! My appt is this evening, at 5pm. Hubby is picking up my lovely little girl, and I am getting a break.
Okay, so things are not perfect in BandAid land- like everyone else, I am trying to adjust my lifestyle to our economy, and sometimes it's just not easy. I realize, and have said many times, that I thank God for my problems- they are managable to me, and that is fine. Other people's problems are much worse than mine, so please don't think I am complaining. I'm not. What I am doing is taking charge of me- as the beautiful Read said earlier- I am "owning me". Life is, as the diving diva Barbara, has stated, "too short". It is. That is for sure.
I am not happy lately, and that's not good. It affects the people around me- home, work, everywhere. I owe it to myself and everyone around me to get my shit straight, and that's what I am starting tonight.
Interestingly, I have stopped taking Zol*ft, and I feel fantastic. I think I was numbed out, kind of not dealing with the stuff going on in my life- husband not working, mounting financial pressure, feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, etc. For me, Zol*ft helped me cope by not forcing me to cope- that's probably not clear. I feel almost like I was in a self induced emotional coma- I wasn't dealing with things because I just couldn't, and the meds kept things in check.
Lately, I feel like I am emerging from a coccoon. A fat coccoon, and a anti depressant coccoon. Yay me!
My little girl started preschool on Friday. God, I love that kid. She is my shining star, and the numero uno reason for me straightening myself out!
BTW, my birthday was Saturday, and I am another year older. I think I am going to seriously start lying about my age.
Lovalu!
A
I am back in the saddle. The therapy saddle, that is. I did it- I finally got myself an appointment with a new therapist- and I am very excited! My appt is this evening, at 5pm. Hubby is picking up my lovely little girl, and I am getting a break.
Okay, so things are not perfect in BandAid land- like everyone else, I am trying to adjust my lifestyle to our economy, and sometimes it's just not easy. I realize, and have said many times, that I thank God for my problems- they are managable to me, and that is fine. Other people's problems are much worse than mine, so please don't think I am complaining. I'm not. What I am doing is taking charge of me- as the beautiful Read said earlier- I am "owning me". Life is, as the diving diva Barbara, has stated, "too short". It is. That is for sure.
I am not happy lately, and that's not good. It affects the people around me- home, work, everywhere. I owe it to myself and everyone around me to get my shit straight, and that's what I am starting tonight.
Interestingly, I have stopped taking Zol*ft, and I feel fantastic. I think I was numbed out, kind of not dealing with the stuff going on in my life- husband not working, mounting financial pressure, feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, etc. For me, Zol*ft helped me cope by not forcing me to cope- that's probably not clear. I feel almost like I was in a self induced emotional coma- I wasn't dealing with things because I just couldn't, and the meds kept things in check.
Lately, I feel like I am emerging from a coccoon. A fat coccoon, and a anti depressant coccoon. Yay me!
BTW, my birthday was Saturday, and I am another year older. I think I am going to seriously start lying about my age.
Lovalu!
A
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Photo Essay- Before, After, Lunch, 90!!!! Pounds Down!
Hello Friends,
I am super excited, because I am 90 Pounds Down!!!!!!!
Here is a comparison shot of me from last July and today! I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
July 2010
I am super excited, because I am 90 Pounds Down!!!!!!!
Here is a comparison shot of me from last July and today! I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
July 2010
Today!
I am so excited! Hey, check out the collar bone in the today pic! And, it's the same string of pearls- notice how much longer they seem now???!!!
I am 5'11, 255lbs, and take a size 16W. Yes, a 16W. I am tall and have a large frame, and a decent amount of muscle.
I am jelly that I am not going to BOOBs, but, things are too hectic now for me to consider a fun trip without the fam. We are going to Florida for 2 weeks in the end of September/early October, and it conflicts. I want to go next year- hopefully, there will be one in 2012!
My little girl starts nursery school on Friday! I attended the orientation yesterday at 1pm- doesn't anyone work? Answer: Most Mom's stay home in my town. Oh well. I am also the only one who asked about the snack, drink, shoes, potty, swimming, etc. At least I didn't feel like the oldest one in the room! There was only one early twenties couple, the rest were 30+, which is a relief.
Love to all, back to the grind!
Annie
PS- I cannot comment from work, which is annoying. I read your blogs daily, and send you my support and love!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Great News!
My breast biopsy was negative! It is confirmed to be a fibroadenoma, and is a benign tumor! YAY! Now, I can relax, and focus on more pressing issues in my life- yeah, I've got those too.
Wonderful things in my life:
- I don't have breast cancer!
- My daughter is my sunshine, my moonlight, my love, and the light of my life
- My health is getting better with each pound lost- my bp, cholesterol, etc. are all excellent
- I've lost 87 pounds!
- My career is wonderful
- I passed my PMP! Woo Hoo!!
Things to improve on:
- Relationship with hubby- he's depressed, I'm in denial, he hasn't worked in two years- enough said
- Payoff bills, streamline expenses, build up nest egg
- Move more
- Live in the moment
This scare has me thinking that I need to start paying attention to what is happening, (or not happening) around me. I think I need to get a therapist or something. I hate whining on this blog- it's about my band, right? The other thing is that I am ashamed- ashamed my hubby could be perceived to be a loser, afraid that I am a loser by extension- or at least an enabling co-dependant doormat- :)
I am lucky that I can support myself, and my daughter. Being the sole family support, however, makes things tight. I need to see some effort from my husband. I know he has pain, but get back to the MD! I have made things plain that he needs to get an income, stat, but it doesn't seem to be working. He's very sensitive, and I hate fighting.
Didn't I say I wasn't going to whine??? Oh well.
Thanks for listening. The best thing- I don't have breast cancer!
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